Saturday, February 28, 2015

Medicine awkwardness


The only thing I've found more awkward than a female suppository is when your 2.5 y. o. toddles over to provide a running commentary.

Bug asked if it was mommy's medicine, and then proceeded to hop up on the bed with legs splayed so that he could have some medicine too.

Maybe he'll be an OB/GYN.  As long as it doesn't traumatize him, we're good.

FET #1: 10DP5DT

Monday.  Still two days away.  In the greater scheme of things, it's approaching relatively quickly...but feels like it's taking forever.

Side effects: intermittent cramping, some light queasiness.  Return of fairly vivid dreams, some light lethargy.  I'm not pushing myself with exercise, though, so not sure if the lethargy is more of a placebo effect.  Same with the dreams.  And the cramping and queasiness, for that matter.

Woke up starving in the middle of the night.  I'm pretty sure that's a s/e of the progesterone.  Meals sometimes leave me queasy or with gas cramps.  Bleh.

The cats are pretty darn clingy.  Mama Cat is now spending every night cuddling against my stomach.  Old Guy tries to join her with occasional success (surprising considering that they hate each other).  Sweet Guy joins me for computer time around 50% of the time now.  Considering that he's never been a lap cat in the 9 years I've known him, I'm very much enjoying our cuddles.

Two days until beta.  I'm really looking forward to having some certainty and simply knowing the direction this cycle is taking.




Friday, February 27, 2015

FET #1: 9DP5DT

Oh, beta (blood test) day, why won't you come any closer?  Still 72 hours away.  It feels so long.

Many clinics test anywhere between 9DP5DT (=14DPO) and 12DP5DT (=17DPO).  Our first clinic tested at 13DP3DT.  I was working at the time, so the 2 weeks went by relatively quickly.

Our new clinic's policy is to test at 12DP5DT, which feels so far away from the transfer date.  With both cycles, it naturally has fallen on a Monday.  Which means that I still have an entire weekend to get through before knowing what's up with our little blast.

I don't test early at home.  I've never, ever gotten a positive home pregnancy test on my own, so I don't want to jinx it in any way.  The _only_ true positive I ever got was after the positive beta with Bug's pregnancy.  I took a home test, and received the second line even before the control line appeared.  It was amazing.  On my last cycle, I tested after my inconclusive beta and received a faint test line alongside the control line.

Monday will come, just sometimes it feels like it's not soon enough.

A big test for me is this weekend.  It was at a comparable point last cycle when all pregnancy symptoms (some fatigue, light cramping, queasiness) simply faded away.  I stopped "feeling" pregnant, for lack of a better word, even despite the progesterone and estrogen I continued to take.  I have no idea if I feel pregnant or not right now, but know that returning to feeling 100% like myself is not a symptom I hope to experience.

It's also the point where my cycle should start if the progesterone isn't suppressing it.  It did suppress it last cycle, so I'm not holding out hope.  I'm 31 or 32 days into the current cycle, 14DPO.

We'll see.

Side effects, 9DP5DT: Sleeping a bit better, dreams that aren't 100% vivid but still quite memorable.  Cramps & queasiness yesterday, hot flashes (???), very light & minimal spotting.  Everything comes and goes throughout the day.


Thursday, February 26, 2015

What is In-Vitro Fertilization (IVF)?


In a nutshell, IVF involves joining sperm and egg to create a healthy embryo for patients for whom this process doesn't occur naturally.  It generally involves pumping me full of hormones, retrieving eggs, fertilizing those eggs in a laboratory, watching them grow, and then transferring the best one(s) at either 3 or 5 days past conception.  From there, aside from maintaining relatively high levels of progesterone and estrogen, it's up to my body - and the embryo(s) - to take over.

As straightforward as it seems, the process is far more difficult.  Not every egg will fertilize, nor will every embryo make it to transfer day, nor will every transferred embryo implant.  At the same time, too much pushing can cause the body to become hyper stimulated - a dangerous situation to be in.  My REs - and I think this is indicative of most - have generally tried to maximize my chances for success without pushing me too far.

The following is taken directly from MedLine Plus.  If the description below seems overly convoluted and complicated, well, that's because the entire process is.  It's a long, drawn-out and painful process through which I'm repeatedly willing to put my body for the possible outcome of having a child.



In vitro fertilization (IVF)

In vitro fertilization (IVF) is the joining of a woman's egg and a man's sperm in a laboratory
dish. In vitro means outside the body. Fertilization means the sperm has attached to and
entered the egg.

Description

Normally, an egg and sperm are fertilized inside a woman's body. If the fertilized egg
 attaches to the lining of the womb and continues to grow, a baby is born about 9 months
 later. This process is called natural or unassisted conception.
IVF is a form of assisted reproductive technology (ART). This means special medical
techniques are used to help a woman become pregnant. It is most often tried when other,
 less expensive fertility techniques have failed.
There are five basic steps to IVF:
Step 1: Stimulation, also called super ovulation
  • Medicines, called fertility drugs, are given to the woman to boost egg production.
  • Normally, a woman produces one egg per month. Fertility drugs tell the ovaries to produce several eggs.
  • During this step, the woman will have regular transvaginal ultrasounds to examine the ovaries and blood tests to check hormone levels. 
Step 2: Egg retrieval
  • A minor surgery, called follicular aspiration, is done to remove the eggs from the woman’s body.
  • The surgery is done as an outpatient procedure in the doctor’s office most of the time. The woman will be given medicines so she does not feel pain during the procedure. Using ultrasound images as a guide, the health care provider inserts a thin needle through the vaginaand into the ovary and sacs (follicles) containing the eggs. The needle is connected to a suction device, which pulls the eggs and fluid out of each follicle, one at a time.
  • The procedure is repeated for the other ovary. There may be some cramping after the procedure, but it will go away within a day.
  • In rare cases, a pelvic laparoscopy may be needed to remove the eggs. If a woman does not or cannot produce any eggs, donated eggs may be used. 
Step 3: Insemination and Fertilization
  • The man's sperm is placed together with the best quality eggs. The mixing of the sperm and egg is called insemination.
  • Eggs and sperm are then stored in an environmentally controlled chamber. The sperm most often enters (fertilizes) an egg a few hours after insemination.
  • If the doctor thinks the chance of fertilization is low, the sperm may be directly injected into the egg. This is called intracytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI).
  • Many fertility programs routinely do ICSI on some of the eggs, even if things appear normal. 
Intracytoplasmic sperm injectionWatch this video about:Intracytoplasmic sperm injection
Step 4: Embryo culture
  • When the fertilized egg divides, it becomes an embryo. Laboratory staff will regularly check the embryo to make sure it is growing properly. Within about 5 days, a normal embryo has several cells that are actively dividing.
  • Couples who have a high risk of passing a genetic (hereditary) disorder to a child may consider pre-implantation genetic diagnosis (PGD). The procedure is done about 3 - 4 days after fertilization. Laboratory scientists remove a single cell from each embryo and screen the material for specific genetic disorders.
  • According to the American Society for Reproductive Medicine, PGD can help parents decide which embryos to implant. This decreases the chance of passing a disorder onto a child. The technique is controversial and not offered at all centers. 
Step 5: Embryo transfer
  • Embryos are placed into the woman's womb 3 - 5 days after egg retrieval and fertilization. 
  • The procedure is done in the doctor's office while the woman is awake. The doctor inserts a thin tube (catheter) containing the embryos into the woman's vagina, through the cervix, and up into the womb. If an embryo sticks to (implants) in the lining of the womb and grows, pregnancy results.
  • More than one embryo may be placed into the womb at the same time, which can lead to twins, triplets, or more. The exact number of embryos transferred is a complex issue that depends on many factors, especially the woman's age. 
  • Unused embryos may be frozen and implanted or donated at a later date.

Why the Procedure is Performed

IVF is done to help a woman become pregnant. It is used to treat many causes of infertility, including:
  • Advanced age of the woman (advanced maternal age)
  • Damaged or blocked Fallopian tubes (can be caused by pelvic inflammatory disease or prior reproductive surgery)
  • Endometriosis
  • Male factor infertility, including decreased sperm count and blockage
  • Unexplained infertility 

Risks

IVF involves large amounts of physical and emotional energy, time, and money. Many couples dealing with infertility suffer stress and depression
A woman taking fertility medicines may have bloating, abdominal pain, mood swings, headaches, and other side effects. Many IVF medicines must be given by injection, often several times a day. Repeated injections can cause bruising.
In rare cases, fertility drugs may cause ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome (OHSS). This condition causes a buildup of fluid in the abdomen and chest. Symptoms include abdominal pain, bloating, rapid weight gain (10 pounds within 3 - 5 days), decreased urination despite drinking plenty of fluids, nausea, vomiting, and shortness of breath. Mild cases can be treated with bed rest. More severe cases require draining of the fluid with a needle.
Medical studies have shown so far that fertility drugs are not linked to ovarian cancer.
Risks of egg retrieval include reactions to anesthesia, bleeding, infection, and damage to structures surrounding the ovaries, including the bowel and bladder.
There is a risk of multiple pregnancies when more than one embryo is placed into the womb. Carrying more than one baby at a time increases the risk of premature birth and low birth weight. (However, even a single baby born after IVF is at higher risk for prematurity and low birth weight.) 
It is unclear whether IVF increases the risk of birth defects.
IVF is very costly. Some, but not all, states have laws that say health insurance companies must offer some type of coverage. But, many insurance plans do not cover infertility treatment. Fees for a single IVF cycle include costs for medicines, surgery, anesthesia, ultrasounds, blood tests, processing the eggs and sperm, embryo storage, and embryo transfer. The exact total of a single IVF cycle varies, but may cost more than $12,000 - $17,000.

After the Procedure

After embryo transfer, the woman may be told to rest for the remainder of the day. Complete bed rest is not necessary, unless there is an increased risk of OHSS. Most women return to normal activities the next day.
Women who undergo IVF must take daily shots or pills of the hormone progesterone for 8 - 10 weeks after the embryo transfer. Progesterone is a hormone produced naturally by the ovaries that helps thicken the lining of the womb (uterus). This makes it easier for the embryo to implant. Too little progesterone during the early weeks of pregnancy may lead to miscarriage.
About 12 -14 days after the embryo transfer, the woman will return to the clinic so that a pregnancy test can be done. 
Call your health care provider right away if you had IVF and have:
  • A fever over 100.5 F (38 C)
  • Pelvic pain
  • Heavy bleeding from the vagina
  • Blood in the urine

Outlook (Prognosis)

Statistics vary from one clinic to another and must be looked at carefully.
  • Pregnancy rates reflect the number of women who became pregnant after IVF. But not all pregnancies result in a live birth.
  • Live birth rates reflect the number of women who give birth to a living child.
According to the Society of Assisted Reproductive Technologies (SART), the approximate chance of giving birth to a live baby after IVF is as follows:
  • 41 - 43% for women under age 35
  • 33 - 36% for women age 35 - 37
  • 23 - 27% for women ages 38 - 40
  • 13 - 18% for women age 41 and over

Alternative Names

IVF; Assisted reproductive technology; ART; Test-tube baby procedure

References

Lobo RA. Infertility: etiology, diagnostic evaluation, management, prognosis. In: Lentz GM, Lobo RA, Gershenson DM, Katz VL, eds. Comprehensive Gynecology. 6th ed. Philadelphia, Pa: Elsevier Mosby; 2012: chap 41.
Goldberg JM. In vitro fertilization update. Cleve Clin J Med. May 2007; 74(5): 329-38.
The Practice Committee of the Society for Assisted Reproductive Technology and the Practice Committee of the American Society for Reproductive Medicine. Criteria for number of embryos to transfer: a committee opinion. Fertil Steril. Jan 2013;99 (1):44-46.
Jackson RA, Gibson KA, Wu YW, et al. Perinatal Outcomes in Singletons following in vitro fertilization: a meta-analysis. Obstet Gynecol. 2004;103: 551-563.

Update Date: 3/11/2014

Updated by: Susan Storck, MD, FACOG, Chief, Eastside Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology, Group Health Cooperative of Puget Sound, Bellevue, Washington; Clinical Teaching Faculty, Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology, University of Washington School of Medicine. Also reviewed by David Zieve, MD, MHA, Isla Ogilvie, PhD, and the A.D.A.M. Editorial team. 

IVF belly

This is my stomach on drugs.  IVF drugs.

Pre-Bug during IVF #1, in 2012.

Post-Bug during IVF #2, 2014.  I never lost my Bug Belly, that's for sure...

Stimming drugs.

We spent months trying to figure out how to recycle the sharps.  Finally brought them back to the clinic for disposal.


FET cycle #1 (from IVF cycle #2) by the numbers

By the numbers:

Drugs used: Synarel (suppression), estrogen 2x daily, progesterone 3x daily, low-dose aspirin
Days stim: xxx

Chance of success given: 70%

TSH: Around .86 at start of cycle, 2.29 during cycle.

Lining check u/s: Feb 13
Embryos transferred Feb 18: 1 5d (4BB)

Symptoms: Lethargy and vivid dreams first week, noticeable cramps and moodiness 6-7DPT.  Cats ridiculously clingy.


IVF Cycle #2 by the numbers

By the numbers:

Drugs used: Menopur, Bravelle, Lupron (trigger due to OHSS concerns), HCG follow-up, estrogen 2x daily, progesterone 3x daily
Days stim: 8

Chance of success given: 70%

TSH: Around 3.5 at start of cycle, hovering around 3 w/ increase in synthroid during cycle.

Eggs retrieved Nov 8: 13
Eggs mature: 8
Eggs fertilized (ICSI): 4
Embryo transferred Nov 13: 1 5d (4AB)

Symptoms: Some pinching, twinges and cramping during first week.  Increasing queasiness over 2nd week.  Around 8DP5DT, a strong feeling that I was pregnant, similar to the general feeling I felt later on in my pregnancy with Bug.

No moodiness, late cramping, or utter exhaustion.  Cats acting like themselves.

Around 10DP5DT, symptoms disappeared suddenly.  I felt like myself again, no hint of pregnancy.

HCG beta 12DP5DT(17dpo): 14
Beta 14DP5DT (19dpo): 6

Stopped progesterone and estrogen on 14DP5DT.

IVF Cycle #1 by the numbers

By the numbers:

Drugs used: Follistim, , HCG (trigger), estrogen, Crinone 4x daily, low-dose aspirin
Days stim: 8-10 (can't remember exact number)

Chance of success given: 66%

Eggs retrieved Jan 17: 5
Eggs mature: 3
Eggs fertilized: 2
Embryos transferred Jan 20: 2 3d: 1 8-cell, 1 2-cell

Symptoms: Nil.  Refused to pay attention to any, other than that the cats were ridiculously clingy.

HCG beta 13dp3dt (16dpo): 400
Beta 17dp3dt (20dpo) 3500

First ultrasound 2/23: 1 baby measuring 7 weeks 4 days (2 days ahead of schedule). EDD October 10th, 2012.

Bug born October 2nd, 2012 following a rocky pregnancy.  (Details posted separately.)

My pathway to infertility

I always wanted to be a mom.  Looking back on it, it's one of those dreams that you can't always discuss openly.  Especially having graduated from a women's college.  To be a mom?  It's something you're supposed to do alongside your professional goals.

But I always wanted to be a mom.  It wasn't supposed to be this hard.  I'm part of the post-women's-lib generation, the one who was taught that pregnancy could happen at any time, and the generation who was given the luxury of the birth control pill as a means of suppressing it.

If only I knew.

My husband and I waited until the supposed "right" time.  Nothing happened.  Visits to the OB led to a prescription for one of the relatively milder fertility drugs, Clomid.  Ultrasounds and monitoring.  Nothing.  I underwent blood tests - all clean.  DH underwent tests - all came back fine.

Looking back, I had the major indicators of a problem nearly going back twenty years.  A cycle that was always a disaster.  Inconsistent and irregular at best.  Debilitating cramps.  Really debilitating cramps.  To the point that I missed work, school, and all life functions on a daily basis.  To the point where 7 cm dilation in Bug's labor didn't feel as bad as my monthly cramps.  I thought it was normal.  Everyone talks about menstrual cramps, so what was the problem?  The awesomeness of the birth control pill hid my cramps for over 10 years and let me function like a vaguely normal human being.

As I've since learned, any sign of _debilitating_ cramps is worth investigating.

I trucked off to a referral with a local reproductive endocrinologist.  Bedside manner of zero.  Major fail.  I was referred to a second reproductive endocrinologist, Dr. Samuel Brown.  Awesome guy, really liked him.  Major disadvantage - clinic 1.75 hours away from our house.   That was irrelevant at this point, just a "minor" inconvenience.  Ha.  Said by someone who clearly hadn't gone through IVF monitoring.

Endometriosis was mentioned by both Dr. Brown and my OB as the surmised cause of my infertility.  The one test that could verify it, a laparoscopy, didn't offer enough in the way of increased pregnancy rates to overcome my fear of the small surgical risks that could occur.  We discussed IUI and other options.  We compared costs, success rates and what would work best for our needs.  I enquired about mini-stim in-vitro fertilization (essentially, a test tube baby created using a lesser number of hormones than full IVF), and eventually decided to pursue it.  The specs of our situation - insurance, probable cause of infertility and financial - made it the best option.

I started suppression for IVF #1 in December of 2011, followed by stims in January of 2012.  A 3DT of two embryos on January 20th gave us our little boy 8 months later.  The 1.75-hr drive to Dr. Brown's clinic at least 10 times during that cycle was inconvenient, but apparently quite worth it.  Very thankful for close friends in Jacksonville who opened up their house and hearts to me during that time.  And for our beloved Prius, Yoda.

After Bug's arrival, I was worn out by a difficult pregnancy as well as the infertility leading up to it.  Figured he'd be an only child.  As he progressed towards toddlerhood, I realized that, while I was content with one, I wanted to see if we could bring another child into this world.

Enter another year of trying.  A diagnosis of treatable postpartum hypothyroidism.  A diagnosis of secondary infertility (technically awarded after 6 months of infertility post-child).  Our cross-country move the year prior necessitated our referral to a new reproductive endocrinologist, Dr. Al Yuzpe.  Endometriosis and laparoscopy broached again.  More bloodwork.  Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) performed in June.  No pain from it (a lovely surprise!), but caused debilitating monthly cramps to return with a vengeance.  Went back on birth control pill.  Not a great way to try to get pregnant.

With such debilitating cramps still on the horizon, we decided to go at the fertility full-force once again.  We pursued our first course of full IVF.  Stims started in late October of 2014; cycle produced three blastocysts on day 5.  A 5DT of one (other two cryopreserved) yielded a chemical pregnancy two weeks later.  I went through a round of hormonal suppression and then geared up for our first frozen embryo transfer in February.

And that is where I am today.  8DP5DT of FET#1.  More to come.

FET #1: 7DP5DT

I'm writing this blog to chronicle my current journey for my own family as well as shed light on the path we've taken.  To give another face to infertility, and to help show that we walk amongst everyone else.  That we come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

The title for this post is a whirlwind of acronyms that, without a connection to infertility struggles, would make no sense.  Wow.  To spell it out, today is 8 days following (8DP) the embryo transfer of a 5-day blastocyst (5DT) for a cryopreserved embryo transfer (FET).

Ummm...still unclear.

I went through an IVF cycle in November.  I was pregnant with that late-stage embryo, called a blastocyst, for around a week.  It's called anything from a failed implantation to a chemical pregnancy to an early miscarriage to an inconclusive pregnancy, depending on who you ask.

The cycle left us with two additional perfectly viable embryos.  Both were cryopreserved - frozen in dry ice. We started preparing for the first frozen cycle in January.  A blastocyst was transferred last week.  I'll find out next week if it successfully implanted.

The two-week wait is difficult enough.  Jacked up on hormones, as much estrogen and progesterone as your body can manage, makes it a downright joy.

8DP5DT, 13DPO in more simple layman's terms.  What are my symptoms?  I have utterly no idea.

1DP5DT - 5 DP5DT: increasing lethargy, vivid dreams, some queasiness 0DP-3DP.  I think I picked up a touch of food poisoning around the time of transfer.  Cats becoming increasingly cuddly.

2DP5DT - 5DP5DP: Intermittent & very light cramping.  Extreme dizziness (the if-I-look-down-I'll-fall-over type) at 3DP5DT.  Moodiness increasing.

6DP5DT: Severe cramps lasting around an hour mid-day, light cramps throughout much of rest of day.  Insomnia, less vivid dreams.  Ridiculously cuddly cats.

7DP5DT: Cramps continued throughout much of day, occasionally (but not often) severe.  Incredibly moody and irritable.  Cats still very cuddly.  Insomnia picks up again from pre-transfer, dreams less vivid (makes me less optimistic).

Every single one of these symptoms could be attributed to the heavy doses of progesterone running through my body.

My clinic waits until 12DP5DT to run the beta test.  That's Monday, still a whopping 5 days away.  Who knows what pseudo-symptoms will develop in the next few days?

With Bug's pregnancy, I had none (other than clingy cats).  Zero.  Zip.

Monday can't come soon enough.



The hidden face of infertility

Infertility has many faces.  Some hidden, some perhaps not so much.

It could be the childless couple down the road.  The ones whose house is always open for the neighbors' kids.  The ones who would make the perfect mom and dad, but who never seem to get there.

It could be the single lady you see at church.  Or, for that matter, the single guy.

Or the gay couple, male or female.

For all of that, it could even be the pregnant woman you encounter at the grocery store.  Or the mother chasing her little boy.

It could have been me.

It was me.

It is me.

I am a daughter, a friend, a wife and a mother.

I also am an infertility patient.  What an ironic term; infertility certainly forces patience.

My husband, son and I.  We are the family on the street that disappears under the hidden guises of infertility.  I'm sure that no one would assume our struggles upon first meeting us.  My 2-year-old son, Bug?  Below is his first picture.  I suspect that anyone who has done IVF will recognize it immediately.

Progesterone, estrogen, clomid, follistim, menopur, bravelle, trigger, IVF, ICSI, HSG, laparoscopy, endometriosis, FSH, LH, uterine checks, hypothyroid, ultrasound, cryopreservation, TSH checks, HCG, embryo, blastocyst, downgrading, stimulating, FET, beta tests, bloodwork, reproductive endocrinologist.

A hodgepodge of words of little significance to fertile couples.  Our family is unfortunately intimately associated with this terminology.

I don't claim to know what other women facing infertility have experienced.  Only that it sucks.  That I've felt the pain, and that while we all walk on this journey alone, we all walk together as well.

Welcome to my journey.